Sometimes I fear when I find a person with whom I have a LOT in common with, that they’ll push me away because they think I’m ‘putting on an act’ or ‘trying to be them’ or something worse, and then I get self-conscious about it and then start avoiding them out of embarrassment or because they won’t talk to me unless I start the conversation, or they’re actually genuinely busy and then I end up looking like an impatient asshole. It bothers me too that I even get affected by other people’s opinions of me enough to have this sort of thing happen. I can’t help it though, its a deep rooted fear to be rejected and I have that fear bad… its not like a fear of needles or spiders, that’s more understandable. This fear is a reflection of my failure to grow as a person, and a failure of my self-confidence.
So umm… yeah, not sure where I was going with this; Regardless, thank you for following my blog, considering these random posts like this that do wonders for me looking attractive and/or sane.
Time for sleep though, nite~
/full of myself